21/12/12

21/12/12..... yes thats what on calendar today and its special. And do you think you know why? Give it a second thought friends, if i would have been you i won't jump to conclusions so fast...... because sadly or gratefully,world is not comming to its end.

So, what's on my extraordinarily ordinary mind today?

Lets give it a check.

1)I should really download torrent files for twilight breaking dawn Part 2, and Disney Brave before i end up using all my Bandwidth for Gossipgirl series, just to find out Dan Humphry.. our lonely boy .... was the gossip girl...ahh thats so lame.... (but anyways i m still watching the series....and to confess... i am really inspired by Blair :P and thats even more stupid)

2)I badly wish to suggest someone to watch "Flipped" and maybe then they will know, that i am living in a different world of imagination and need to brought back to reality. Its not what they say, Its about those thosand meanings i interpret and analyse. :|

3)Yippy, my hairs looking atleast 3 inches longer than previous holidays and my curls seem to be really conditioned. No doubt, this is even 'once in a year' ocassion :P

4)Reading my inbox. Childhood friends can surprisingly remind you of who you are really and might not even realise. Taking you down the memory lane, they can help you see who you were before you started changing or judging yourself from others point of view. :) And i cant help myself, thinking what if i can once again play video games all day long without worries....and mind you, i wont be taking second player this time :P.... i hated that so much :P

5)OMG, I have got this great story to write about. Ohh no, its again inspired by real life characters and incidents ... :/. What if i really write about it?

6)I am bored of my playlist. Someone, anyone please suggest.

7)Because i have nothing to do, I can probably post something stupid and completely vella on Neha's wall. :P

8)No, more crappy shitty romantic movies from now on :P (what i always say, after watching the same kind of movie :P)

9)Yes, that will be all 4 now i guess. :P

Yes there were no clues. :P :P

So, If you haven't guessed already, my blog completes its 1st year today. :)

Because India needs Development

Tracking down, Final Year

Finally, after a long while i sit to write this one. (One of my favorite so far, a must try \m/)

Are you up for a little fun? With bits of insanity and some really crazy shit? 

Let see, Do you often show symptoms of boredom from your mundane monotonous schedule? Most of the times you stay dull and doleful worrying about xyz factors..... You are depressed about GOD knows WHAT....And series of sentimental FACEBOOK STATUS follows on your profile ?

Cool that just tells, KITKAT break banta hai......

So here is the thing. 

Firstly you need to observe and target some really nice, simple, socially inactive , and studious Final year student. 

Once you are done with the first task, try to sketch out his schedule and habits. 

And now the fun part begins. Follow him and make sudden appearances out of the blue. Throw curious looks and just when he notices, move away and pretend to involve in other activity. Make sure you act convincingly suspicious and mystery girl rather than flirtatious, otherwise things may go utterly wrong and he may seriously ask you out for a coffee :P

As the time continues to pass and sudden appearances are made again and again, pretend to turn more psyche as if you can see through him, sometimes occasionally giving a weird and strange stare. Involve your friends in the prank to give it a more realistic aura. Give him a serious feeling as if he is being followed or something is going strange or people are spying on him.

Stay aware of his friend circle and everything will go fine i assure ;) Better if you try in the last month of the sem, just in case things go wrong you have nothing to worry about. Slate will be wiped clean once he graduates. Good luck for alumni meets and convocations :) :P

Credits TO- I prefer to keep contributors of the task anonymous.... but wont miss the opportunity to say THUMPS UP to all of them  :D

PS- Don't you dare try it on me, you will be dropped dead before you know it ....:P 

Oil Painting

Frugality is one of the most beautiful and joyful words in the English language, and yet one that we are culturally cut off from understanding and enjoying.  The consumption society has made us feel that happiness lies in having things, and has failed to teach us the happiness of not having things.  ~Elise Boulding

My Gallery

Poppies, "scarlet tide of romance in the great wide somewhere"

“Bring poppies for a weary mind That saddens in a senseless din.” 
William Winter Quotes

“Through the dancing poppies stole A breeze most softly lulling to my soul.” 
John Keats Quotes

“Summer set lip to earth's bosom bare, And left the flushed print in a poppy there: Like a yawn of fire from the grass it came, And the fanning wind puffed it to flapping flame. With burnt mouth red like a lion's it drank The blood of the sun as he slaughtered sank, And dipped its cup in the purpurate shine When the eastern conduits ran with wine.” 
Francis Thompson Quotes

“Every castle of the air Sleeps in the fine black grains, and there Are seeds for every romance, or light Whiff of a dream for a summer night.” 
Amy Lowell Quotes

“Gentle sleep! Scatter thy drowsiest poppies from above; And in new dreams not soon to vanish, bless My senses with the sight of her I love.” 
Horace (Horatio) Smith Quotes

Experimenting with Pencil colors for shading

Give time to admire yourself

I Hate You (5)

I reached the nearest metro station in next 15 mins and decided to wait for the first metro in the morning. Though i was still completely clueless about my destination but all i wanted for the day was to escape those merciless auguries which kept haunting me all night, retreating my way back to my past. I wanted to shut and lock myself with all my fears in the loud noises and crowd of the city.

But as one can expect a lot of commotion from a public domain like a metro station, it was unusually very quiet and still that morning. In fact their were only a couple of old aged retired man sitting and reading a newspaper, probably returning from a morning walk or something. Instead of noticing further details i checked the time on my watch and it was precisely 6:02 am. , another 20 minutes for the train.

With that i heard tapping of the heels coming from the staircase, and naturally my eyes ran to check for the source. And eventually with every click of the heel, figure of a lady in her late 30's emerged. I chose to describe her as a lady but not woman, because of her graceful appearance, and the aura she possessed. If someone would have asked to pen sketch her i would have surely described her as exuberant. She had long, silky dark brown hairs, with a deep "u" cut and curls at the end. Her hairs were thrown back and were clutched beautifully. She wore a broad, black, square framed spectacles that suited her face cut tremendously. Her eyes had a hint of kajal and eyeliner, and lips were covered with a thin layer of lip gloss, complementing her wheatish complexion. Her dressing was equally catching, with a red colored long top having a deep neck, around which she draped her henna colored scarf, and paired it beautifully with junk jewel. Highlighting her height and personality were her dark brown boot shoes and leather bag.

As she approached near we exchanged glances, she sat next to me on the steel bench while waiting for the train.

After 5 mins approximately.

"Where are you heading this early morning". She asked me
Under normal circumstances, it would have made me uneasy and i would have lied but in her presence and smile i felt some sort of assurance and i replied honestly but bluntly, "I don't know."
Instead of questioning about it, or demanding more details, she opened up her leather hand bag and groped through it. Finally she handed over me a pass. It was about an art exhibition happening in the downtown by "Vidhya Kashyap".
"Vidhya Kashyap? Who is she? " I inquired.
"That's me," and she smiled.
"But why are you giving it to me? I am not even a potential buyer." I replied with gratitude.
"Because artist are always more fond of admirers rather than buyers, plus i thought you did not know where to go, to cam yourself." she replied with great compassion in her eyes.
Completely amazed by her instincts and nerve i kept looking at her for few seconds.
"Look it's completely your choice, i am not forcing you." Her voice brought me back from my thoughts.

I accepted the proposal trusting her instincts, may be she knew better, what i needed for now.
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We reached by 8:30 am, She opened up the gallery and i asked her to get done with her work and i will like to help myself on my own.

Looking at the condition of the gallery and her art studio it appeared to me as if she was quite a renowned artist. Number of paintings displayed was quite large plus the price tag below each painting was equally huge and heavy. I kept moving from one painting to the other in no hurry, noticing the brush strokes, minute detailing, flow of colors and the those wonderful thoughts and expressions involved in the background. Finally I reached a painting with a girl standing on a cliff in the stormy weather facing vastness of the sky and from the corner of her dress were emerging lot of butterflies. For some unknown reason i lost myself into it, and i sat there opened up my diary and started to pen down all those random thoughts and emotions which occurred to me. I lost the track of time.
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"You enjoying immensely i believe," said Vidhya Kashyap and sat next to me.
First time in last 1 hour i looked away from my diary and said, "a lot".
"So you are a writer?" she asked.
"Yes, you can say so. Though i don't share much of my work." I replied while taking care of my words.
"I thought so." She said with her same assuring smile.
"By the way i was wondering why haven't you put up a price tag below this painting."I enquired.
"Why, you want to buy it?" She replied with a question in return.
"Wish i could someday, its beautiful." I replied with generosity.
"Well dear, its not for sale. Its one of my earliest and favorite work." She told me.
"Ohh, But seriously its beautiful." I said with a bit of despair this time.
"Do, you know why you liked this painting so much?" She asked me with her same compassionate eyes.
"I don't know, may be the strokes of the wind, or her hairs drifting in the wind." I replied yet being unsure about my answer."
"Its because that girl in the painting is insecure and fragile, but still she is ready to take the leap of faith. Because her passion and dedication don't have limits. She is afraid to move on and leave her comfort zone, yet she wish to try. "

And i moved to tears. In few hours she learned about me more than so many who live with me everyday. Trying hard to hold my tears back. I asked her "if i can come here more often."
"Anytime dear, now its your place as well." and same assuring smile.

Rock Climbing

I Hate you (4)

"I might get late, don't wait for me. Prenika XOXO". Niharika read out loud for Sonali from the sticky note i left behind on the bathroom mirror before leaving early morning.

While Sonali choose to stay in bed, Niharika continued to crib regarding my secretive attitude.

"Why cant she just tell us where she go. What she do. We have been room mates  for almost 2 years now. She has to tell us all today, no matter what. No excuses on that." said Niharika with complete annoyance.
"Because she is hurt." replied Sonali calmly.
"Why. What have we done to hurt her." Questioned Niharika.
"Not by us stupid. It's probably  about something we have no idea about." answered Sonali..
"So why cant she just trust us, And share it. What are friends for otherwise." Niharika said with exasperation.
Conversation pulled out Sonali out of her sleep and she sat straight on her bed and said,"Because its just not the kind of person she is. She likes being left alone rather talk and discuss over it. Tell me have you ever seen her crying or talking about her issues in these 2 years?"
When Niharika tried hard to recall, Sonali answered her question herself, "answer is big NO. Now think over it, why is it so? Don't she have any problem? Its because she want to fight things on her own. She is struggling hard but she wont say it. Sometimes friends are suppose to be a silent pillar of strength, to give faith that if things don't work out i will stay by your side and that whats she needs the most right now."

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By 5:30 am i gave up all my hopes, i knew one more night has added among those countless sleepless nights i have spent being restless. I decided to take a shower and prepare coffee for myself. Later with pin drop silence i picked up my keys and closed the door behind.

Memoirs of a Geisha

No, this post is strictly not meant to review but yes it has something to do with it.

‘Geisha’, now I am still not sure how to define Her. Should I call her an artist as the narrator introduces her or as my dictionary suggests.

Every culture and history has witnessed ubiquitous nature of Her…its just the name that differs. They have been amusing various art forms and their artists since long, are among the most endured and intensely talked about characters whether in ‘eleven minutes’ or ‘dangerous beauty’.  Instead of all those qualities of feminism they possess they are still judged brutally and considered a disgrace. Story of a geisha is as forbidden to be told or talked about as it is fragile.

If anyone defines true feminism in my opinion it’s definitely geisha. She is strong, capable, self sustaining, had gone through so much in life and yet made it through alive. She had none of the choices to make but adapted to the worst you could imagine. Know the rules of the world better than so many of us and above all she never allowed herself to be fooled by the emotions…. Even if she did for once she knew how to let go and hold on to the grounds of reality.

All I want to ask in one line is…isn’t that uncivilized world exists because civilized world need it to exist.

Why is it easy for all of us to look away rather than understanding and respecting?

I Hate You (3)

True I can’t afford ‘F’, neither can I tolerate Vishal and more over can’t let my ego go down against him. After all I promised him his first ‘F’ grade, and now asking him to cooperate and maintain professional relationship will be such a horrendous thing to do.

So considering all my available options…. “Do I have any?”

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Finally after thinking and lot of rethinking I was ready with my almost fool proof plan for the Lab.

What if I am not ready for the ‘F’, neither is he. This was the only loophole to be benefited from. Why should I be the one asking for cooperation? Let him pull the trigger and ask me to cooperate. He must be equally worried or even more for his first ‘F’ grade. All the while I can just pretend like I don’t care, as such it goes with my image too.

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TUESDAY LAB

“Hi”, said Vishal merrily, as if nothing ever happened.

Good for me probably he wants things to go back to normal, as he needs my cooperation. I thought to myself.

“Heloo” I said with an ugly smile.

Prof. Mathur explained the aim of lab in next 15 minutes and later we were left alone to perform lab for the next 1.5 hours.

“So…?” I asked.

“I am thinking of utilizing my time.” He commented.

“OK, so you better start working. It’s a long experiment.” I commented back.

“Ohh…What experiment? I was talking about spending time with Aarika.” He replied with a grin on his face.

“What the fuck, this lab is meant for experiments not for your romantic sessions with your girl friend.”I said irritated.

“She is hot. Are you jealous?”

Ok Prenika keep your calm. Don’t freak out and make another terrible mistake. I told myself.

“What about our experiment then?” I enquired.

“I thought we were planing to flunk. You remember?”He asked with a broader smile than before.

“You are a despicable human being. I hate you”.

“I know. And it’s ok you are jealous. Any ways you know where to find me in case you change your mind.”

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Finally in last half an hour of the lab I realized he is no way concerned about it. I started struggling with all the electrical components on my own just when he reappeared.

“So you changed your mind. Should have called me, could have helped you.”

I already knew I lost d battle of words and with my sword and weapons down I said, “You can still help, I will not be able to complete the experiment in time”.

“Well don’t worry. I already knew something like this will happen, since our chemistry is so great. So before coming to the lab I asked Mr. Mathur for extra lab slot in this week.”He replied with genuine sincerity.

“And that’s the reason; you were so cool about it. You wanted to watch me suffer. You sadist.”

“I call it being one step ahead. And it was all just to make you clear that we both need each other. I know it was rude, but then I didn’t have many options to pick from either. ”

“Fine, we will work it out somehow.”

“So we are partners.” He said and swiftly brought his hand forward.

LOST LOVE

I feel incomplete,

But please don’t ask me why?

I just know something is missing,

But that something is hard to define.

I argue and I question

Is this for what I am destined?

Whether it Rain’s or shine,

I am always on the verge of crying.

Is it about lost love I agonize?

Or the expectations I nurture inside.

Weighed by the tears of forlorn hope

I wait for your silence to drop off.

Bound by the semblance of bygone,

I gaze at stars and turn woebegone.

Petrified with the thought of loving again,

persistent enough to wait for a change.

When I continue to mope and pine,

A erratic thought cross my mind.

Am I too obsessed with love of life?

Have I not shelved plans of other likes?

Then and there itself I realized.

It’s not regarding love of life,

Love for life is what missing inside.

Ambivalence is no more state of my mind.

With endurance I gather the left of me,

will rebuild the castle of dreams.

Princess need not always have a prince,

Because “Alice in wonderland” I wish to relive.

All at once I found the one,

Whom I can lean and should love.

A whole new stranger girl,

Who was smiling amid of tears.

VALENTINE WEEK

After literally watching every one celebrating around, initially i was unable to figure out how a single like me should go and enjoy myself, then suddenly this idea of watching a light hearted romantic comedy 'Ek mai or ek Tu' with my sisters popped in my mind. And trust me nothing can be better than enjoying SINGLEHOOD WITH SISTERHOOD.... haha now thats our anthem..... u can never pass comments nor can stare while your bf/gf hovering around ...whistling or hooting  while watching a movie seems even a more distant case ( no gender discrimination.....girls are no less these days...hehe...atleast not us.)

With this popped another idea. Why not to prepare a list of some movies, few beautifully captured couples and some nice songs from the same category for my blog. Just in case If You missed something,
So if you happen to be single this week..be thankful enough....lots of options to surf around.... plus finances.

( list is random.... i wasn't able to prioritize any....)

• Socha Na Tha 

Written and directed by Imtiaz Ali...yes the director and writer of famous movies like Jab v met, Love ajj kal, Rock on... some how 'socha na tha' didnt manage to receive that publicity.. rated 7.6 by IMDb. Socha na tha is a surely fun to watch. If you haven't watched it till now you are surely missing something. 

The script is good, and the dialogues are nice. The music includes light hummable songs which are choreographed well.

• Mere Brother Ki Dulhan

I dont know why but i love this scene, wish if every guy can show maturity like that. India will be certainly a better place to live then. I cant find complete scene on you tube. Please do check the complete scene.

• Prison Break 

Ya i know genre is action and crime, but somehow i managed to adore the chemistry of Wentworth and Sarah. They are hardly together in the whole series, but at the back of the mind they both know they are there for each other, even if they say it or not. More than enough to feel secure.

•  A A Thousand Year  Thousand Years

After 'Jar of Hearts'.... Christina Perri again surprised me with her amazing depth of singing. As an addition to her singing is the video.... all those candles and tint in the background is making it way too appealing.

• Wake Up Sid 

For some unknown reason i love this movie. Its not just about finding and falling in  love with a stranger turned friend but more about finding yourself.

• Twilight

Now no matter how disappointed i may seem with the story line. One thing always ask me to catch the movie is there never dying romance and passion. Plus Bella's lullaby is such a delight to hear. 

If that sort of world exist in vampires world....i wont mind having vampires around. hehe...:P

• Taylor Swift 

When it comes to lovey dovey songs, she has it all. You can listen to her on any occasion either be it your break up or new crush. She has a song for literally every phase of your love life. 

• Letters to Juliet , 27 Dresses, Confessions of a Shopaholic

  
  
  
  
  

CUTE, ROMANTIC, GIRLY AND SILLY.....that how i will describe all of them. Don't be surprised if you hear the famous 'love story' by Taylor Swift in the background of letters to juliet, well it was written for the same movie.

• Sad Romance

  
  
  Whenever i listen to this one..... It tells me one long lost story. And its so beautiful, beyond words can interpret.
  
  
  
  

• The Painted Veil 

  
  
  
  
  

After my friend recommendation about the movie on her blog, I watched this one. Impact is yet not gone. It is truly said you not always required to be together to remain in love. Like Titanic it has a tragic ending but then i will rank it upper than titanic for sure.

• Tu Bin Bataye

  
  
  This one is from the movie rang de basanti. With romance it has an essence of friendship.
  
  

Will keep adding as things will strike....:) For now enjoy....:)

She

When darkness becomes quite and still,

She walks out in her heels.

Insecure and fragile she is,

So fabricate courage to deceive.

Chill continue to sting her spine,

But instead she wraps herself to feel just fine.

Only shadow of woods in her sight,

While insects drone from behind.

When she hear slow, heavy tramp of feet,

She looks around and clicks her heel.

Dark shadow arises and follows,

And her heart pulses begin to grow.

She wanted to cry, wanted to fight,

Groped her bag and pulled a knife.

Hand from the dark clutched her tight,

She made her move by giving a line.

Running away along the streets,

She questions if she has some rights?

Waiting for the ELEVATOR?

Bored with your monotonous life?

Well here is quick interesting replay, which you will surely like to retry if you want to enjoy a hearty laugh with your friend just like I did today.

Finally by 8 pm your busy schedule of the day ends and you approach towards the lift of the 10^th floor. The earlier you want to get back home, longer the queue waits ahead of you, making sure you don’t get into the lift before its second round trip.

That’s when one mischievous smile of your friend brings back glee in your eyes. You grasp each other’s hand firmly, while taking care of the notes in the other hand. Quietly shifting towards the stair so that no one notices, soon enough you become out of sight for all others and you start running along the stairs. Every other floor you reach, you take a casual walk towards the lift, run your eyes to make sure no one is around as if you are on a secret mission, you press the button for the lift and again the chase for another floor continue via stairs till you reach the basement…… laughing hysterically how everyone else is still stuck in the lift just because lift waited on each floor for the ones who are already walking out of the building. We were the last standing in the queue but were the first ones to walk out with smiling pretty faces.  :D

(sadistic us…hehe)

PS- Neha Garg we are crazy and insane…:P

I Hate You (2)

“Sonali, stop laughing and do something about it.” I urged as she tried to control her immortal laugh.

Sonali and Niharika were my two irreplaceable roommates and pillar of support. I don’t know how I would have survived last two brutal years of my existence without them.

Sonali had a elegant model like figure, rosy complexion and light brown eyes always done with beautiful eye makeup. Needless to say she was popular among guys. The more attractive she was, more handsome her boy friend was.

Niharika on the other hand was always a sweet little ambitious kiddo for me and for some reason I always felt responsible for taking her care. Anyways she always proved me wrong by taking care of me in my worst moments, plus her stupid yet simple suggestions somehow always worked for me.

“Come-on, think about it Prenika. This is probably the smartest and easiest manner to get good grade, with that you never know when stars turn in your favor.”

“Excuse me.”? I questioned with my raised eyebrow.

“You know, Vishal is quite a catch….”

“Ehwww… even the thought is creepy. I will kill myself.” was my immediate response.

“Why are you planning to kill yourself? What’s up”? Niharika shouted as she entered the room.

Later Sonali translated the entire story and again laughing sessions continued.

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“Option 1.  Be good to him. Work together. Get good grades, and may be get lucky..hehe.

Option 2. Go and talk to him. Ask him to say NO to work with you. Manage passing grades and be happy with it.

Option 3. Irritate him like he was never irritated before and force him to back out.

“What’s your pick, by the way I love 3^rd vala.” said Niharika.

“Don’t be stupid Niharika”, said Sonali.

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“We need to talk.” I grumbled as I stood in front of Vishal.

“And I thought you hate me. But funny enough you can’t even wait till Tuesday lab.” He said in a pure sarcastic tone.

“Look I want you to tell sir that you can’t work with me.”

“Ohhh I see…you mean you want a favor from me.”

Completely pissed by his statement I shouted.

“No,I am just warning you to back out.”

“Oh My God, I am scared.”

“You better be.”

“Let’s take a look. What is it that you are so jealous about? My personality? My popularity???  Ohh my God, just crossed my mind. You fear falling in love with me, Isn’t it. Exactly that’s why you want to stay away from me as much as possible, knowing I will never be yours.”

“You are going to regret this. I promise you.  Be prepared for your first “F” grade. And for your information, Personality you are so proud about is not even near to what is called as civilized.”

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“In your heated argument you just forgot to take notice that his “f” grade means yours as well. You will be scored as a group.” Niharika said while bringing me back to my senses.

“Don’t you watch movies? Every blockbuster romantic love story begins the same way.” Sonali smirked as she enlightened us with her wisdom.

“Fuck off.” 
Silence was what i needed.