25th Nov

(yes that's my room)

Honestly when you use to drop me till school bus everyday, it use to annoy me a little. Why will any high school going kid like that anyways. :P But then now when I think about it, I feel a whole lot different about it. I know I argue a lot, I am stubborn and miss managed. Careless at times. And most of the times I tell you "I will do it on my own. Let me do it my way". And all such sort of things. But the truth is I can not. The fact is I can take the risk and be myself because I know you are there to help me sort out in case I end up in a soup. :) I do not think, I can ever Thank God enough for letting me have parents like you. :)  [ and you need not to get sentimental on this one,(just in case you are reading) you know I can be a Devil and an Angel at the same time :D]

Because I fear failure so much, that I end up worrying and working more on my backup plan, instead of my original plan. And eventually I end up doing all the wrong things. #LearnToHaveLittleFaith

And then there are people I meet, who will talk about Ayn rand's philosophy, will encourage the idea of "Do what you like doing the most" but will most probably end the discussion by forcing on the idea, that a 3.25 job in a MNC is probably a best shot of success and happiness for an avg. student. Really?

Happiness is finding a sticky note, with an encouraging message, to start my day with. Lucky to have few friends, I know who really care. :) Thank God we have 1 more semester together.

Medicines. It was fine till then. No needles please. :(

Not really into the grand wedding thing, or to say simply "wedding". But this is really nice.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xPtXgivTKog
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hGnK_UslZes
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oZPVHaPCfso (my personal fav.... i m loving d bride here.. she is so fun)

(must be the music and editing skills)

And I have no Idea why every one assumes they know what is good for me.

The idea of starting a brand new life somewhere in the hills, teaching kindergarten students and having time to cook myself a breakfast and enjoy a book by the window with a hot cup of coffee in the evening . #exciting (or less ambitious? I will never know the difference. )

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For silly Romantics.

ONE DAY

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P1tSxwpUz7Y

This is one of the best things I have watched in days. Made me cry literally. (Trust me not many movies can do that to me). Everything I will say will be taken otherwise, so i will just refrain from the idea of writing a review. But go and watch this movie because I am saying so. You will thank me later.

For Animation Lovers

MONSTER UNIVERSITY

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ODePHkWSg-U

Totally fun. Initially I was not so sure, if I will like this movie and in fact I kind of ignored it after going through its trailer. But then my Graphic's teacher insisted on the idea of watching this one. Thankfully this time I did.

Defining moment of the movie and my personal fav. is when mike gets his college ID card. Watch it and you will know why.
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Will I be something?
Am I something?

And the answer comes:
You already are.
You always were.
And you still have time to be.
-Anis Mojgani

15 Nov 2013

#Sleepover, possibly one of the best remedies in the world. 

#Cold + #Major Project + #Sleeping Dose , Worst combination ever.

#22, not sure what i want. It sucks.

And sometime I do not know what do i feel or how do i feel about the whole thing. And this is when i ignore talking. Bear with me if you can. :|

And just maybe, I will never reach a conclusion. #ignore

#Library Fine + #Mess Food = Side effects of college

When a 3 year old cry for you :(. #i miss u 2 myra <3

And if it was legal to kill few irritating people, my life would have been certainly normal. (Not sure if being serial killer will be counted as normal. :P)

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Because I think he is cute, or may be the kind of roles he play :D

(from his latest movie :D )

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zQYz7f7enjI

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kmmLH0JWo-Q

 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LNC1FDR8Ays

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“To be fond of dancing was a certain step towards falling in love”

― Jane Austen, Pride and Prejudice

(Delena fans will understand)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=10SVwR8K9mI 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=78AOCLReZeg ( i like this one)

Mixed set of priorities

"Good choice, I like the guy", Ananya said looking amused with herself as i savored last few sips of my take away coffee.
Coming back from my train of thoughts, confused I looked around. "What?" I exclaimed.
"The guy you are staring at. I think he is kinda sexy." She explained.
"Seriously, Ananya." was my only reaction.

Well Ananya can be little pushy and compelling at times, but somehow I still feel she is one of the best thing that happened to me in college. I have absolutely no idea how I would have survived these brutal years of my graduation without a friend like her, specially considering the fact that I can be a little "drama queen" at times. Like say, today itself.

We have our own spot, where we usually hang out after classes. A small open air theater at the backside of a nearby mall. It is nearly walking distance and doesn't take more than 10 mins. to reach.  I like this place. For one, not many people come here except few occasional couples and two, the view is spectacular.

Adding to the view is all the festive decoration and lighting used by mall authority.

"Well, I was not staring at him." I explained. "I was just thinking about something."
"You sure?" She asked teasingly.
"Positive." I said laughing. "And moreover, he is not even my type."
"You know, you need to stop typecasting guys, or should I say outcasting 99% of human male population. Right?" said Ananya with raised eyebrows.
"Yeah, I know. I got you. Thumps up. Now lets talk something else." I said quickly changing the topic.

"So, what were you thinking about?" Ananya asked again.
"Nothing just in general." I said and shrugged.
"Did not look like in general." She argued.

"You don't give up. Do you?" I said half jokingly.
"No I don't." said Ananya. "And you in particular love guessing games. Com'on just tell me. Is it about 'missing  someone'?"
"Noooo, Ananya." I said stressing on my no. "I know exactly what you are hinting at, but seriously no. Not my concern anymore. Just in general." I repeated again, not looking at her this time.

"I am waiting, you know that right?" Ananya said looking persistent.
"Well, I was just thinking about the interview I had." I said playing with my take away coffee cup.
"Okay, so you are anxious about your result. It is gong to be fine." She said trying to convince me.

"I don't think its about the results, I think I already know what is going to happen. Its the feedback that I am worried about." I said looking in the thin air.
"What feedback?" She asked in a confused tone.

I narrated her the entire scene and told her, "At the end of my interview, my HR said I need to prioritize my life. I need to reevaluate, if what I was doing is what I really wanted to do at the first place. I tried hard to convince her, talked about my n no. of projects but all she said was its not about what you are telling me, its about what I can see."

"Its okay, Yar. Forget it. Don't allow her to play tricks on your mind and moreover become the reason you doubt your life decisions. Plus its not like she always wanted to become an HR." Ananya said. "I wanted to become an astronaut. Doesn't mean I can be one."

"Hmm." I said and gave her a subtle smile though not sure if was convinced.






   

25th October 2013

Because its one of those kind of a day, when the sun shines bright and the wind blows cold. The kind of a day, a Jane Austen fan will slip away, to sit and read her favorite book in peace. #Soothing #Satisfying

I think I love Autumn and not just because it holds metaphorical value. #October

When poetry becomes the reason, 2 people connect and characters in the classics become the reason they Argue. #Almost Romantic

Moment you let a stranger see, how vulnerable you are, and you turn friends. Moment she helps you figure out if all the drama is worth it. #Clearly NO

It wasn't like "all the drama" in my life did not occur to me in those few brief moments, but i guess i chose to overlook. As they say, Happiness is a decision not a destination.

Growing up, its a difficult process. Sometimes it means learning the difference between Sample outcomes and Feasible outcomes. (when event is your life) #Yes I am learning Probability these days :P
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Having a bad day?
Two movies to laugh out loud with. :D

1) DUE DATE - Robert Downey, Jr. and Zach Galifianakis. Do i need to say more. Trust me watch it and dont                              let IMDb rating confuse you.

Here .. Link to the trailer
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1p3NnJ_oiE0

2) BAD TEACHER - Awesome to the power awesome.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QTMUa8HfnBw

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"We read fine things but never feel them to the full until we have gone the same steps as the author."
— John Keats

From Parallel Universe, one that is ahead in time

I know you have a lot of questions for me, and I wish I could have answered them precisely and accurately. But sadly that is not how it works. I can't tell you if life will or will not be like the fairy tale you imagined. But at the same time i want to let you know that every event in future is an outcome of the decision taken by you in present. Decision whether or not you will stick to the hard way, because there will always be an easy way.

There are going to be times when you will wake up early in the morning, realizing it was just a dream and you do not need to be scared anymore. Good news is you are not pretending or lying to yourself anymore. You exactly know what do you fear the most. It becomes easy when you know what you are fighting against.

At some point of time you are surely going to doubt the people in your life. Not one, not two but most of them. Don't give up on them yet, they might surprise you.

You are going to see people, who will always work their way out without even moving their asses (literally). They will have what you always wanted and worked for. Equation for them will always remain simple + easy on the other hand for you it will always be complicated + difficult. And you might also give them a little attention and envy them for the first couple of days. But the fact is, if it is complicated + difficult, it is because you think that way. (Life is a cheesecake, at least that what i like to imagine)

You may think, emotional bondage hold you back and you are better off without it. But I still want you to think of it as your strength and not your weakness. Emotions give you a shape.

And most importantly i always want you to believe in your favorite word, "Peregrination", Keep moving. :)

PS- and yes possibly you will always wonder, obsess, stalk and will try to unravel the mystery of "why this person was described in such a god like manner". Maybe be because you know the answer already or may be because you think too much. I wish it is the later part. :|
***- Surely you don't know what i am talking about, neither do i wish to let you know. :P Some thoughts are so private that either you do not share them at all, or share them with million users over internet.

Calvin And Hobbes

Because

1) I am obsessed with Calvin.

2) In spite being a 6 year old, He talks about life more brilliantly than 99% people i know.

3) His arrogance is more on the cuter side.

4) I wont mind having kids like him (though they will b such a pain i m sure :P)

5) I have literally browsed half of the internet for the comic strip.

6) And most of all, Its getting kind of repetitive on facebook cover photos. :P

Here are my few absolute favorites.

1) Its only work when someone makes you do it.

  Explains a lot.

2) Ignorance is such a Biss.

If you can't sort it out, JUST IGNORE it. Maybe things will sort out themselves with time. :) 

3) Incapacity to tell the difference.

Boy, I love your attitude. Be stubborn, be crazy. And don't ever let any one, not even yourself talk you into the idea of "Its not possible". Because it is very much possible.

4) If People sat outside and looked at the stars.

Seems True to me. 

5) I Hate You.

Because we don't always mean what we say, and say what we mean. 

6) Try Jumping.

Things will happen, once you will step out of your comfort zone.

7) You don't get to be a mom, if you can't fix everything just right.

Accept it, she has a solution to your every damn problem. And even if not, she can cheer you up and fill you up with new hopes while siting miles away :)

8) Killing the time.

This is what i hate about myself. I should be out there, enjoying life, exploring things and not siting here banging my head against walls.

9) I am going as a barrel of toxic waste.

To his sense of humor. SALUTE.

10) Everybody I know needs what i am selling.

Sarcasm at its best.

11) We Don't read about Dinosaurs. 

Education system. Sigh.

12) I told you not to read this.

Hence, intelligence of male species proved. Hehe.

13) That's Life.

14) Expressing Individuality ?

Yeah we are all fools.

15) Its not Denial, I am just very selective about the reality i accept.

And The best of all

Hope you enjoyed reading them, as much as i enjoyed compiling them. :)

Just Friends

"You are late. AGAIN" I said almost exasperated. "I am leaving now study on your own. And Possibly try and flunk tomorrow, so that you learn to be on time. I am sick of it. And Where the hell is your cell phone? I have been calling you for like forever."

I was probably turning green in anger and all i could see was Rishabh standing just in front of me while keeping a safe distance, making funny faces; trying to calm me down. Telling me to relax.

Obviously we were the center of attraction.

"Excuse me please." He shouted across the tables. "One Nutty Fudge brownie for the lady please. With some hot chocolate syrup and vanilla ice cream." And he turned around to look at me, raising his eyebrows in almost a cute way, "Will that make it?"

Here was my cue, and without a pause i added to my treat. "Plus one lemon iced tea please. Thank you."

He took a seat opposite to me.

"So what is the excuse this time?" I asked him, while getting back to my normal self.
"And I thought i was not answerable to this question after the brownie."
 And we both laughed at his comment.

"Alright, but what about your cell phone? Why have you switched it off?" I asked him in a matter of fact tone, possibly knowing the answer already.

"Leave it, you don't want to know. It's just Tanya,she keeps pestering me all the times and I hate it so much. For her, all what a boy friend is ought to do is, help her manage her mood swings, pamper her all the times and accompany her while shopping." He replied almost irritated.

"What else is girl friend for? Stealing kisses in the khopchas of campus?" I asked teasingly.
"Of course not. How can you think so low me? I wont mind booking a room." was his spontaneous quirky response.
"Ughhh.....Shut up. You were right. I don't want to know." I said stopping him midway, knowing well that i can never win an argument with him when the subject is dirty.

In few minutes are order was served and without wasting much time we followed through the topics of the test one by one.

Approximately after an hour since we started, Rishabh leaned forward from across the table and nearly hissed, "To your 4'o clock.". In all these years, we have developed this unique coded language, which we generally use to indicate the direction of hot girls.

I moved a little, making sure it doesn't look deliberate. And with the corner of my eye, I looked into the direction.
"What? There is no one." I said confused.
"Idiot, that guy over there. He is staring at you." He said looking impressed with himself and equally amused.
"Why? Do I have something on my face?" I asked consciously, bringing one of my palm near to my face. "Oh God, this is so embarrassing. Why you did not tell me about it before."

"Are you serious? He is a GUY. We don't stare because some girl has something on her face. We stare when we find them appealing. You blonde." He said surprised, as If i have such a less knowledge about the behavior of opposite sex.
"Ohh i see, but the fact is you guys stare almost all the times for apparently no reason." I said stating myself loud and clear, making sure I sound legitimate. "And by the way he is not staring at all."
"You are blind. I can bet he wants to talk to you, If you just give him a try." He said putting his argument forcefully.
"You know, we are still left with lot of topics to cover. Can we debate about it later." I said as always ignoring the topic.

"Why can't you just accept the fact that others can fall in love with you, that someone can possibly be dying to date you. And moreover people can genuinely compliment you. What is it?" He demanded to know, being pushy beyond believe this time.
"I am leaving, you sit here, question all day to yourself. And maybe that what they will ask you in test tomorrow." I said nearly in frustrated tone, gathering my notes from the coffee table.
"You are not going anywhere this time. I am not letting you leave this discussion." He said with authority in voice, looking straight at me.

"Whats the big deal?" I said completely pissed off. "I just don't feel like that. I just don't wish to feel insecure, miserable about things that do not even matter. I don't want to be the one trying to get the attention and feel like i am in race with other girls and I have to prove my worth every time. I don't want to pretend someone that i love them whole heartedly when i don't. I don't like guys complementing me because i wanted some body who can actually give those compliments a meaning for me. That is all it is about. Did I answer your question now?"

"And what makes you think you are in race with other girls?" He asked. "Do you know I have always loved you?"

I stood there not knowing what am i suppose to say next. And just before I could respond, he stopped me midway saying, "Don't worry, I know what you have to say. You don't need to explain yourself. And I promise I wont let anything change the way we are now. Best friends."

And He just smiled. This was the first time that I ever realized, his smiles and presence do matter to me. Because they assure me. It will be ok. :)