Memoirs of a Geisha

No, this post is strictly not meant to review but yes it has something to do with it.

‘Geisha’, now I am still not sure how to define Her. Should I call her an artist as the narrator introduces her or as my dictionary suggests.

Every culture and history has witnessed ubiquitous nature of Her…its just the name that differs. They have been amusing various art forms and their artists since long, are among the most endured and intensely talked about characters whether in ‘eleven minutes’ or ‘dangerous beauty’.  Instead of all those qualities of feminism they possess they are still judged brutally and considered a disgrace. Story of a geisha is as forbidden to be told or talked about as it is fragile.

If anyone defines true feminism in my opinion it’s definitely geisha. She is strong, capable, self sustaining, had gone through so much in life and yet made it through alive. She had none of the choices to make but adapted to the worst you could imagine. Know the rules of the world better than so many of us and above all she never allowed herself to be fooled by the emotions…. Even if she did for once she knew how to let go and hold on to the grounds of reality.

All I want to ask in one line is…isn’t that uncivilized world exists because civilized world need it to exist.

Why is it easy for all of us to look away rather than understanding and respecting?

I Hate You (3)

True I can’t afford ‘F’, neither can I tolerate Vishal and more over can’t let my ego go down against him. After all I promised him his first ‘F’ grade, and now asking him to cooperate and maintain professional relationship will be such a horrendous thing to do.

So considering all my available options…. “Do I have any?”

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Finally after thinking and lot of rethinking I was ready with my almost fool proof plan for the Lab.

What if I am not ready for the ‘F’, neither is he. This was the only loophole to be benefited from. Why should I be the one asking for cooperation? Let him pull the trigger and ask me to cooperate. He must be equally worried or even more for his first ‘F’ grade. All the while I can just pretend like I don’t care, as such it goes with my image too.

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TUESDAY LAB

“Hi”, said Vishal merrily, as if nothing ever happened.

Good for me probably he wants things to go back to normal, as he needs my cooperation. I thought to myself.

“Heloo” I said with an ugly smile.

Prof. Mathur explained the aim of lab in next 15 minutes and later we were left alone to perform lab for the next 1.5 hours.

“So…?” I asked.

“I am thinking of utilizing my time.” He commented.

“OK, so you better start working. It’s a long experiment.” I commented back.

“Ohh…What experiment? I was talking about spending time with Aarika.” He replied with a grin on his face.

“What the fuck, this lab is meant for experiments not for your romantic sessions with your girl friend.”I said irritated.

“She is hot. Are you jealous?”

Ok Prenika keep your calm. Don’t freak out and make another terrible mistake. I told myself.

“What about our experiment then?” I enquired.

“I thought we were planing to flunk. You remember?”He asked with a broader smile than before.

“You are a despicable human being. I hate you”.

“I know. And it’s ok you are jealous. Any ways you know where to find me in case you change your mind.”

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Finally in last half an hour of the lab I realized he is no way concerned about it. I started struggling with all the electrical components on my own just when he reappeared.

“So you changed your mind. Should have called me, could have helped you.”

I already knew I lost d battle of words and with my sword and weapons down I said, “You can still help, I will not be able to complete the experiment in time”.

“Well don’t worry. I already knew something like this will happen, since our chemistry is so great. So before coming to the lab I asked Mr. Mathur for extra lab slot in this week.”He replied with genuine sincerity.

“And that’s the reason; you were so cool about it. You wanted to watch me suffer. You sadist.”

“I call it being one step ahead. And it was all just to make you clear that we both need each other. I know it was rude, but then I didn’t have many options to pick from either. ”

“Fine, we will work it out somehow.”

“So we are partners.” He said and swiftly brought his hand forward.

LOST LOVE

I feel incomplete,

But please don’t ask me why?

I just know something is missing,

But that something is hard to define.

I argue and I question

Is this for what I am destined?

Whether it Rain’s or shine,

I am always on the verge of crying.

Is it about lost love I agonize?

Or the expectations I nurture inside.

Weighed by the tears of forlorn hope

I wait for your silence to drop off.

Bound by the semblance of bygone,

I gaze at stars and turn woebegone.

Petrified with the thought of loving again,

persistent enough to wait for a change.

When I continue to mope and pine,

A erratic thought cross my mind.

Am I too obsessed with love of life?

Have I not shelved plans of other likes?

Then and there itself I realized.

It’s not regarding love of life,

Love for life is what missing inside.

Ambivalence is no more state of my mind.

With endurance I gather the left of me,

will rebuild the castle of dreams.

Princess need not always have a prince,

Because “Alice in wonderland” I wish to relive.

All at once I found the one,

Whom I can lean and should love.

A whole new stranger girl,

Who was smiling amid of tears.

VALENTINE WEEK

After literally watching every one celebrating around, initially i was unable to figure out how a single like me should go and enjoy myself, then suddenly this idea of watching a light hearted romantic comedy 'Ek mai or ek Tu' with my sisters popped in my mind. And trust me nothing can be better than enjoying SINGLEHOOD WITH SISTERHOOD.... haha now thats our anthem..... u can never pass comments nor can stare while your bf/gf hovering around ...whistling or hooting  while watching a movie seems even a more distant case ( no gender discrimination.....girls are no less these days...hehe...atleast not us.)

With this popped another idea. Why not to prepare a list of some movies, few beautifully captured couples and some nice songs from the same category for my blog. Just in case If You missed something,
So if you happen to be single this week..be thankful enough....lots of options to surf around.... plus finances.

( list is random.... i wasn't able to prioritize any....)

• Socha Na Tha 

Written and directed by Imtiaz Ali...yes the director and writer of famous movies like Jab v met, Love ajj kal, Rock on... some how 'socha na tha' didnt manage to receive that publicity.. rated 7.6 by IMDb. Socha na tha is a surely fun to watch. If you haven't watched it till now you are surely missing something. 

The script is good, and the dialogues are nice. The music includes light hummable songs which are choreographed well.

• Mere Brother Ki Dulhan

I dont know why but i love this scene, wish if every guy can show maturity like that. India will be certainly a better place to live then. I cant find complete scene on you tube. Please do check the complete scene.

• Prison Break 

Ya i know genre is action and crime, but somehow i managed to adore the chemistry of Wentworth and Sarah. They are hardly together in the whole series, but at the back of the mind they both know they are there for each other, even if they say it or not. More than enough to feel secure.

•  A A Thousand Year  Thousand Years

After 'Jar of Hearts'.... Christina Perri again surprised me with her amazing depth of singing. As an addition to her singing is the video.... all those candles and tint in the background is making it way too appealing.

• Wake Up Sid 

For some unknown reason i love this movie. Its not just about finding and falling in  love with a stranger turned friend but more about finding yourself.

• Twilight

Now no matter how disappointed i may seem with the story line. One thing always ask me to catch the movie is there never dying romance and passion. Plus Bella's lullaby is such a delight to hear. 

If that sort of world exist in vampires world....i wont mind having vampires around. hehe...:P

• Taylor Swift 

When it comes to lovey dovey songs, she has it all. You can listen to her on any occasion either be it your break up or new crush. She has a song for literally every phase of your love life. 

• Letters to Juliet , 27 Dresses, Confessions of a Shopaholic

  
  
  
  
  

CUTE, ROMANTIC, GIRLY AND SILLY.....that how i will describe all of them. Don't be surprised if you hear the famous 'love story' by Taylor Swift in the background of letters to juliet, well it was written for the same movie.

• Sad Romance

  
  
  Whenever i listen to this one..... It tells me one long lost story. And its so beautiful, beyond words can interpret.
  
  
  
  

• The Painted Veil 

  
  
  
  
  

After my friend recommendation about the movie on her blog, I watched this one. Impact is yet not gone. It is truly said you not always required to be together to remain in love. Like Titanic it has a tragic ending but then i will rank it upper than titanic for sure.

• Tu Bin Bataye

  
  
  This one is from the movie rang de basanti. With romance it has an essence of friendship.
  
  

Will keep adding as things will strike....:) For now enjoy....:)

She

When darkness becomes quite and still,

She walks out in her heels.

Insecure and fragile she is,

So fabricate courage to deceive.

Chill continue to sting her spine,

But instead she wraps herself to feel just fine.

Only shadow of woods in her sight,

While insects drone from behind.

When she hear slow, heavy tramp of feet,

She looks around and clicks her heel.

Dark shadow arises and follows,

And her heart pulses begin to grow.

She wanted to cry, wanted to fight,

Groped her bag and pulled a knife.

Hand from the dark clutched her tight,

She made her move by giving a line.

Running away along the streets,

She questions if she has some rights?

Waiting for the ELEVATOR?

Bored with your monotonous life?

Well here is quick interesting replay, which you will surely like to retry if you want to enjoy a hearty laugh with your friend just like I did today.

Finally by 8 pm your busy schedule of the day ends and you approach towards the lift of the 10^th floor. The earlier you want to get back home, longer the queue waits ahead of you, making sure you don’t get into the lift before its second round trip.

That’s when one mischievous smile of your friend brings back glee in your eyes. You grasp each other’s hand firmly, while taking care of the notes in the other hand. Quietly shifting towards the stair so that no one notices, soon enough you become out of sight for all others and you start running along the stairs. Every other floor you reach, you take a casual walk towards the lift, run your eyes to make sure no one is around as if you are on a secret mission, you press the button for the lift and again the chase for another floor continue via stairs till you reach the basement…… laughing hysterically how everyone else is still stuck in the lift just because lift waited on each floor for the ones who are already walking out of the building. We were the last standing in the queue but were the first ones to walk out with smiling pretty faces.  :D

(sadistic us…hehe)

PS- Neha Garg we are crazy and insane…:P

I Hate You (2)

“Sonali, stop laughing and do something about it.” I urged as she tried to control her immortal laugh.

Sonali and Niharika were my two irreplaceable roommates and pillar of support. I don’t know how I would have survived last two brutal years of my existence without them.

Sonali had a elegant model like figure, rosy complexion and light brown eyes always done with beautiful eye makeup. Needless to say she was popular among guys. The more attractive she was, more handsome her boy friend was.

Niharika on the other hand was always a sweet little ambitious kiddo for me and for some reason I always felt responsible for taking her care. Anyways she always proved me wrong by taking care of me in my worst moments, plus her stupid yet simple suggestions somehow always worked for me.

“Come-on, think about it Prenika. This is probably the smartest and easiest manner to get good grade, with that you never know when stars turn in your favor.”

“Excuse me.”? I questioned with my raised eyebrow.

“You know, Vishal is quite a catch….”

“Ehwww… even the thought is creepy. I will kill myself.” was my immediate response.

“Why are you planning to kill yourself? What’s up”? Niharika shouted as she entered the room.

Later Sonali translated the entire story and again laughing sessions continued.

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“Option 1.  Be good to him. Work together. Get good grades, and may be get lucky..hehe.

Option 2. Go and talk to him. Ask him to say NO to work with you. Manage passing grades and be happy with it.

Option 3. Irritate him like he was never irritated before and force him to back out.

“What’s your pick, by the way I love 3^rd vala.” said Niharika.

“Don’t be stupid Niharika”, said Sonali.

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“We need to talk.” I grumbled as I stood in front of Vishal.

“And I thought you hate me. But funny enough you can’t even wait till Tuesday lab.” He said in a pure sarcastic tone.

“Look I want you to tell sir that you can’t work with me.”

“Ohhh I see…you mean you want a favor from me.”

Completely pissed by his statement I shouted.

“No,I am just warning you to back out.”

“Oh My God, I am scared.”

“You better be.”

“Let’s take a look. What is it that you are so jealous about? My personality? My popularity???  Ohh my God, just crossed my mind. You fear falling in love with me, Isn’t it. Exactly that’s why you want to stay away from me as much as possible, knowing I will never be yours.”

“You are going to regret this. I promise you.  Be prepared for your first “F” grade. And for your information, Personality you are so proud about is not even near to what is called as civilized.”

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“In your heated argument you just forgot to take notice that his “f” grade means yours as well. You will be scored as a group.” Niharika said while bringing me back to my senses.

“Don’t you watch movies? Every blockbuster romantic love story begins the same way.” Sonali smirked as she enlightened us with her wisdom.

“Fuck off.” 
Silence was what i needed.